Test results

Hey everyone! I've been so busy from the transfer, going on vacation and getting back to normal that I haven't been able to update everyone on what's going on.

First of all, I would LOVE to give an awesome shout out to one of my best friends from High School. She recently delivered two sweet baby girls via C-Section for her IP's. Her pregnancy with these girls put her on bed rest for a while, but they came out at a perfectly cooked 37 weeks! How awesome is that! This girl was always by my side, whether it was going to class, getting into trouble or holding my hand and telling me everything was going to be okay. I went through one really rough period of time in High School where I thought all of my friends hated me and I was really alone. This girl stayed by my side and helped me get through this rough time. I'm so grateful to call her my friend and I am beyond excited and happy for her!

I got home from vacation on Tuesday night, and had an appointment for my blood pregnancy test on Thursday. I thought I could hold out until the test, but I just couldn't! I had Ray bring home some pregnancy tests and the 2 that I took were both POSITIVE! I was so happy, but I didn't want to get ahead of myself. I tried to remain calm and wait for the results from the doctor. I got a phone call around 3pm from our doctor who had informed me that while the test was positive, it was a very low number (a 6 to be exact) and that I would have to go back on Monday for a retest.

My heart sank. Something in me was scared for the next test. While I had so many amazing MJ mommas telling me their great success stories of their babies being a 5 and turning 2 years old soon brought my spirits up, but just like before... I didn't want to get my hopes up. The whole weekend I felt... BLAH. You know, lingering headache, wanting to eat but nothing sounding good, napping for 3 hours, that kind of stuff. Which we took as a good pregnancy sign.

Unfortunately when I got the phone call on Monday afternoon, I was told my test came back negative and that I was in fact not pregnant. I took a deep breath in and out after the phone call. I could only ask myself WHY? I've never had a problem getting pregnant the regular way. I want to give this gift so badly to this amazing couple and I just can't right now.

So now I have to wait for Aunt Flo to pay me a visit, and we will go from there. I hope we can get the ball rolling soon, because I love being pregnant and like I said, I want to give the gift of baby toes and cuddles so badly.

I am thankful to all my MJ mommas who have supported me and lifted my spirits through this rough time. Your thoughts and words of encouragement mean the world to me. I wish I could just hug all of you! While I am sad that these girls didn't take this round, I know that it isn't uncommon for first rounders not to stick. It also reminds me how lucky I am to not have to go through this for my own children and makes me feel even more thankful for a body that can create and hold babies until they're with those who love them the most.
This is a sad part of surrogacy, folks... But I'm still happy as ever to be on track to giving my intended family the baby (or babies) they deserve to hold. I cannot wait until our next transfer!! I am beyond blessed with what I have already and I'm so lucky I have been chosen to give this gift to another family.

While I'm very saddened about this situation, I feel like one way to keep my mind busy and to help lift not only MY spirits, but those who I have met over the past months who have encouraged me and sent their positive thoughts and prayers. I'm going to do a series of PIF's (pay it forward's) to thank everyone who has given their gratitude to us. I'll be doing them on my Facebook profile (Bianca Kailee Finney), on my blog (in another KCINM post), on my Instagram account (biancakailee), on my It Works page (Paid To Get Skinny) and some other random places!

I wanted to get ALL of this done like 2 days ago and life got in the way. So, I'm thinking Friday night or possibly Saturday afternoon... or both! All I ask is that shipping is paid for, unless you're local and would like to pick up!! PIF's will consist of random things like princess slippers for your little girl, hair accessory board, It Works! wraps, Young Living credits/coupons, and some other random things I have laying around that haven't been used or opened.

Thanks to everyone for once again, reading all of my ramblings. Don't forget to add me on Facebook and Instagram and "like" my page Paid To Get Skinny so you'll be able to enter all of the PIF's!